Navigating Mental Health Challenges
with Micah Dawanyi
in conversation with CLOUDZILLA™
in conversation with CLOUDZILLA™
An exclusive interview with CLOUDZILLA
Micah Dawanyi is a multifaceted individual based in Miami, blending his passions for storytelling, coaching, and social advocacy. His journey into these realms took an unexpected turn after facing life-threatening medical issues that abruptly ended his promising soccer career at the age of 15. Dawanyi's transition led him to coaching, non-profit work, and eventually authorship, with his debut book, "Step Into My Shoes: Memoirs From the Other Side of America," serving as a platform for social advocacy. Delving into themes of mental health and social injustice, Dawanyi's work aims to spark meaningful conversations and foster resilience. As a licensed coach and speaker, he integrates mental health awareness into his professional endeavors, emphasizing the importance of emotional well-being alongside physical health. Through storytelling and personal experiences, Dawanyi seeks to break down stigmas surrounding mental health and inspire others to embrace vulnerability on their journeys.
Now, joining us for an engaging conversation with CLOUDZILLA™, Micah shares his unique journey and insights.
My name is Micah Dawanyi, and I’m an author, licensed coach, and speaker based out of the Miami area. My journey into the world of storytelling, speaking, and advocacy has been kind of unorthodox. I started as an athlete when I was younger. I played soccer for a competitive academy until I was 15, when I was forced to stop due to life-threatening medical issues. I was a junior in high school then, and I found myself in this strange transitional period where I had to find new hobbies and passions.
First I got my national coaching license, and I started a non-profit training program in my city. I also joined my school’s yearbook program and picked up some coaching gigs as I finished high school. When I moved to college, I began drafting an idea for my first book titled ‘Step Into My Shoes: Memoirs From the Other Side of America.’ I used to say that the book idea came from left field, but these days, I don’t know if that’s true. I wanted to use my writing as a form of social advocacy, and that’s technically what I was already doing with my nonprofit business and other gigs. Nonetheless, that book launched me into speaking, working on social justice projects, and multifaceted forms of social advocacy. My main focuses have been mental health and social injustice- but I’m curious and always trying to learn and expand the scope of my work.
I know I’m not alone in this experience, but I never really heard the phrase “mental health” when I was a kid. These conversations have become more prevalent recently. I first started to hear the phrase after my soccer career came to an end. See, my experience with my medical complications was traumatic because my heart was affected. I had several close encounters with death, including collapsing episodes out on the field. And it was weird; as traumatic as that was, I expected a resolution at the end. To find out that my career was completely over was probably just as challenging as the medical issues themselves. I’d lost friends before, but I had to learn how to grieve a phase of my life; the closing of a major chapter. Nobody really teaches you how to do that; how to let a part of you die. I went through this period of emotional confusion because the loss of my career also forced me to deal with family issues in my home that were an afterthought when I had sports to focus on.
I started seeing a therapist during my freshman year of college, and I remember learning that it was important for me to identify my emotions to be able to find clarity. I couldn’t do that at first because I didn’t have any previous experience in working through my emotions on a deep level. I had to learn the true meaning of transparency and vulnerability, especially as I looked inward.
I really couldn’t say. Going to therapy for the first time was probably the catalyst for me opening up to the idea of mental health conversations. I also switched my field of study in college from exercise science to social and behavioral sciences, and I remember learning such interesting concepts about the human mind and the nuances of wellness. I also remember certain days when I first started coaching, and my students would sometimes show up early to training just to talk. Many of them were coming from difficult circumstances at home and they recognized that my training sessions presented a safe space to open up.
That realization was major because it allowed me to process the idea that wellness is just as much mental as it is physical. So with all that in mind, I’d say that my entire life prepared me to enter the health and wellness space.
As a licensed coach, when I’m running training sessions or speaking at events, I talk about the importance of mental health just as much as I talk about physical health. We grow up hearing about the importance of going to the doctor, and doing the right exercises, and eating the right foods. Those ideas are not as alienating to the public because they’re more familiar. But just as we need to fuel and protect our bodies the right way, we have to do the same for our minds. This is something I stress every time I speak.
As an author, when crafting a story, I’m always looking to center an internal struggle in the heart of the story. Whether I’m writing non-fiction or fiction, the internal struggle and the emotional theme of the story drive my work forward. I find myself gravitating to themes like emotional expression, healing, and resiliency when I write. I’d like to think that readers can see how these themes fall under the larger umbrella of mental health awareness.
One of the challenges I’ve struggled with is a fear of failure, and I know it derives from the tragic ending of my athletic journey. Subconsciously, I can associate world-ending circumstances with situations that are not as daunting as they seem. That will usually cause me to freeze and begin to overthink my next steps. But it’s something I’ve learned to deal with a little bit better in the past two years.
I’m completing my master’s degree right now, but when I began my program, I started to become overwhelmed by the academic expectations that were presenting themselves. In a master’s program, professors demand so much more from you and the margin for error is much slimmer than anything in undergrad or grade school. My parents didn’t get to graduate school, so I didn’t have any point of reference for what I was walking into. But one thing I learned (and I’ve applied this to several areas of my life) is that complex feelings and forward actions can coexist at the same time. I kept working through my program even as I felt loads of angst, worry, and fear about screwing up.
I think it’s important to recognize that you can still keep going despite what you’re feeling. Certain situations do call for a pause, but there are plenty of situations where you can allow yourself to feel the full spectrum of human emotions and keep going anyway. Just that little bit of effort to dig deeper and push through can make all the difference.
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There are so many valid approaches, but my main focus has been storytelling. You’re right- mental health is such a stigmatizing concept. The question I’ve often asked myself is “How can we engage people in these conversations without triggering them or appearing judgemental?” I’ve found that when we tell stories, people can look for fragments of themselves in the storylines. They can look at the artistic representations of themes like mental health and take away important concepts.
My second book ‘Battle Scars & Blossoms’ is a fictional story about a young college student dealing with a traumatic past, and when he arrives at college, his mom gives him an ultimatum to force him to deal with all that he’s been through. I’m able to detail the nuances of a mental health journey and explain those concepts without calling out the audience or making them feel bad. They can simply follow along with the story.
When I’m asked to speak at events or schools, I also share my own mental health journey to show that vulnerability is okay. I really believe that vulnerability is the scariest part of opening up for a lot of people, so if I can show that it can be a good thing, then I’m able to help change perspectives.
I know my first answer is going to sound like a lecture from a parent, but getting off my phone has been major in maintaining my mental health. Reducing my screen-time has dramatically improved my attention-span and ability to be present in the moment every day.
The other practice I’ve focused on is reflection- specifically about the spaces that I enter. The older you get in life, you have a bit more autonomy with the spaces you enter into. I try to reflect on which spaces allow me to thrive, which spaces bring me peace, and which spaces bring me angst or discomfort. It doesn’t make much sense to entertain a negative space and then try to heal afterward; I’d rather just stop entertaining that space altogether. It could be in the digital world (like on a certain social media page, for example) or it could be in a tangible, physical, environment.
I’ve found that reflecting on these spaces has allowed me to re-align the type of environments and people I want to be around for my own prosperity.
I think I just recognized that my experiences in life are unique but also universal. I’m not the only person who has ever had to grieve the closing of a memorable chapter of life. I’m not the only person who has ever had a fear of failure or has ever neglected their mental wellness. I realized that I could help people possibly avoid some of the mistakes I made if I shared my story.
I wish someone had detailed the importance of mental health when I was 10, or 11, or 12, but these topics just weren’t talked about then.
Ultimately, there’s power in vulnerability, and each person will probably be impacted differently from my story. I just hope I can inspire people to find the tools they need to nurture their resilience and keep on fighting.
As much as I’ve emphasized themes like reflection and vulnerability, I also want to let people know that it’s important to give yourself grace. A mental health journey can be a rollercoaster. It’s okay if your mind is not where you want it to be. It’s okay if you found some good momentum and then backslid into a negative space. Give yourself grace through it all.
Check out Micah's "sneak peak" video for his story down below!